upset

i'm so upset.. i'm nt feeling well today.. becos AV. i agreed to go out wif e girls [ eve, joo min, xiujin]. so i went out though nt feeling well.. well... AV is terrible.. bad stomach, i dun feeling like eating e whole day... nt feeling well.. mood swing.. easily irritated, easily annoyed and upset etc... but having a nice day gg out wif them..

ivan suppose to pick mi up frm town today aft mi meeting wif e gals. so i msg him when they leaving at 9.30. but he say he will onli come aft 10pm, aft his show... ok... so i tell e gals to go home 1st. but they r nice. they wans to acc mi to wait for ivan to come. :) [thx gals!] so frm far east we walk 2 lucky plaza mac to wait for ivan. ok. msg him again to change venue. he said he'll come at 10.30pm.

then we gals of cos nth to do then start our gossipping session... gals u all noe de la.. when gals come tgt is sure gossip de.

ok. my hp rings i din hear it. we din hear it too. my fault. ring tone maybe too soft sum more in my bag. 6 missed calls. frm him. he called eve. then tk out my phone frm bag, then reliase i haf missed calls. knowing later sure gt scolded. worse tink, duno dat he is not happi, we gals still mess him up acting 1 another voice to him. mi as joo min, joo min as mi, xj as mi blah blah.. e phone is being pass ard... meanwhile, my phone rings [tis time i'm able to hear becos phone is on table], my dad calls. of cos ans la.. finish toking then get back to ivan which is on eve's phone. he said he will reach in 5mins time. of cos, scolded by him y nv pick up phone... blah blah blah.. he said he call mi frm all e way in car, until e ring finish. then he say he dun wan 2 tok abt it, dun wan 2 lose his temper.. ok. then we hang up. uh oh... he gt angry... i told them... but i though to myself.. erm.. shd b ok. we r juz playing.. plus he gt thru mi le ma...

5 mins later, we set off frm mac to taxi stand [ as told] to meet him.. e gals all go back on their own by train i tink. well mi hop in e car. [hur hur hur...] but pretty strange tink happen. aft i got into e car, he start driving off w/o speaking to mi, well of cos i will tok alrdy la. i ask him where r we heading? he keep quiet. so i tot he din hear mi, so of cos i repeat myself. aft dat knowing sumtink is wrong.. i ask him wat happen he oso keep quiet... whole while keeping quiet nt wanting to tok to mi at all. all e way until upper serangoon area... [yes. tis long.] upset. he said he was angry. then blah blah blah...[lazy to repeat] so of cos i gt to explain.. he dun believe my dad called mi. tink we purposely play a prank on him. he said we used him as a joke. [ i tink wat he say to mi is then a biggest joke!] upset. he said to mi when he is driving to pick mi up dat time, he was tinking whether to quarrel or keep quiet.[well. u done both!] but he say he keep giving in to mi and he is a man. ok. EGO. i noe. [shd i say i 'm a gal. and haf feelings too. and shd i compare hu's giving in more? i dun wan 2 make tis worse ok!] upset. of cos i gt veri upset and disappointed. hw could such tinks gt out of ur mouth? upset. whole journey, nearly cried. upset. hurt.

in e end he said sorry. he din mean it. he said he apologize for wat he say and do. he is veri sorry.. of cos, i forgave him. but wasnt becos of his sorry. it is so often used and meaningless to mi. i forgive him becos i love him.[ i love u ok.]

i alrdy told u many times. always tink b4 u speak. juz like e essay i wrote for u. "u dun haf to eat everytink u c. so dun say everytink u tink."

ok. he drive to tis puggol nasi lemak there to eat. not open [...........] thursday off... [haha] too bad. eat sumtink else. aft dat he send mi home and he went home to tk his stuff and go out again.. [ i was telling e gals he wun cum out send mi home then go home again, cos it's so funni. y do he wan 2 do sumtink so silly...?] well, he did.

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knowing not suppose to post tis out. but i did.